The Fanstastic Ms. Fox

Pregnancies. Marriages. Cross-country trips. Transition. Moving. New jobs. Graduation. There are so many changes in people's lives around me that I feel like I'm in the Vancouver version of Rent. Except that, to my knowledge, no-one is dying of AIDS.

So I'd say that it's a season cliffhanger of some TV show, but who ever set a series in Vancouver?

But if someone did, and it included me, I would still be happy to be played by  Choi Min Shik.

(See relevant entry on how this may be accomplished.)

Last night, there was this strange feeling of lightness under my feet. It is as if a great weight has been lifted from my body. Is it that I have overcome challanges in my work and health, and is it that I have resolved some serious issues in my life? This light and giddy-headed feeling continues, and I look at my nailbeds. I examine them, and then I realize that the above may be the case, but it is also true that I'm not getting enough iron.

Gender-wise, my mind is like one of those children's puzzles where there are cartoon characters fishing on one side, hooks with different items on the other (old boot, tire, anchor, used condom - only one has a fish), and between the two lie tangled lines.

                                                                                                                from G-d
In other words,                                                                                                                 |
                                                           from misleading pseudo-intuition------------- from startlingly accurate intuition
                                                   I hear the I Ching reads:                                                           |
the problem is that                                                       from escapist fantasies ---- from deep-rooted insights into real problems
                              Hundun: "Chaos: where beautiful dreams are born"                |          
From my opinions about gender --------------------------------------------------- from wishful thinking ---------- from my hopes for my life
          |                            Before the beginnig of a great brilliance,                                       |                                 |          
I cannot cleanly separate gender identity  ----- from overall identity  --- from professional identity -- from fear of failure
           |                                     there must be Chaos;.                                                                                                       |
from sexual identity  ---- from sexual history ---------------- from a history of isolation ---------------------------- from fears of ostracism
           |                                             |                                        |                        
from sexual desire  --------------- from kink  ------ from social power relations          
           |            before a brilliant person                        |           
from sexual frustration ------------------------------ from social frustration
           |                                    begins something great,
from overall frustration ------------------ from obsessive-compulsive disorder ------------- from body-image issues
                                                                          they must look foolish to the crowd

That's a lot to dissect:
I need a really sharp scalpel,
and a little time.