Going to work on a Gordion knot.

[the_fantastic_ms_fox]

Gender-wise, my mind is like one of those children's puzzles where there are cartoon characters fishing on one side, hooks with different items on the other (old boot, tire, anchor, used condom - only one has a fish), and between the two lie tangled lines.

                                                                                                                from G-d
In other words,                                                                                                                 |
                                                           from misleading pseudo-intuition------------- from startlingly accurate intuition
                                                   I hear the I Ching reads:                                                           |
the problem is that                                                       from escapist fantasies ---- from deep-rooted insights into real problems
                              Hundun: "Chaos: where beautiful dreams are born"                |          
From my opinions about gender --------------------------------------------------- from wishful thinking ---------- from my hopes for my life
          |                            Before the beginnig of a great brilliance,                                       |                                 |          
I cannot cleanly separate gender identity  ----- from overall identity  --- from professional identity -- from fear of failure
           |                                     there must be Chaos;.                                                                                                       |
from sexual identity  ---- from sexual history ---------------- from a history of isolation ---------------------------- from fears of ostracism
           |                                             |                                        |                        
from sexual desire  --------------- from kink  ------ from social power relations          
           |            before a brilliant person                        |           
from sexual frustration ------------------------------ from social frustration
           |                                    begins something great,
from overall frustration ------------------ from obsessive-compulsive disorder ------------- from body-image issues
                                                                          they must look foolish to the crowd

That's a lot to dissect:
I need a really sharp scalpel,
and a little time.

Comments

[estrellada.livejournal.com]

I've been having a week where I'm struggling to figure out how to deal with having breasts, as they don't fit with how I feel right now. (My genitals, however, are never an issue, and no, I don't really know why.)

Does it matter WHY we are the way we are? Like, when I'm feeling Freudian, I decide that I have 'boy' days because my while my brother was obviously 'the first-born son' and my little sister was 'the baby girl', both my parents treated me in a less-gendered way - so I'm the younger son AND the oldest girl.

Other than that I have no explanation as to why I feel like I have a masculine brain (or maybe, just less female than my peers) with female social skills, or that my breasts are sometimes just in the way.

I'm kinda just brain-spilling here.

[estrellada.livejournal.com]

also, it makes sense that gender IS a gordon knot, since it spreads to all areas of life. remind me to show you my paper-journal entry about 'kink, fetish and desire' and we can talk about how it applies to gender.

[bthomasac.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. I can relate to that. I find that more and more, my "kink, fetish, and desire" becomes embroiled in various issues of gender.

[eva00.livejournal.com]

Hell, I identify as completely female, I'm small chested, and sometimes my breasts are just in the way.

[estrellada.livejournal.com]

I think it was in high school, when we did volleyball in gym that I first thought that detachable boobs would be wonderful - as you can guess, it had more to do with 'bumping' than gender!