I hope Godot gets here soon.

[the_fantastic_ms_fox]

It occurs to me that I live among the strange and the mad.

But beyond that, what do I have to say? And where am I?

My life is well, but deficient in The Most Serious and Supreme Project whose presence I have come to expect: a degree, an election, a job. Something to keep me fixated on the future and not on the present.

This year, and it has been a year now, has been aimless. I went back to school not to solve, but escape it. I don't know what I'm doing still, but this is a second chance for me: to be just out of school and to get it right this time. So I've applied for the Census, and for a job focus group thingy, but it's still a matter of waiting around.

My relationship with Erin has been good, but is not exactly 'good' right now. There are reasons to belive that this will clear up in a month and a half, but it's again, a matter of waiting.

Waiting scares me. I hear so many people and then myself say "I'll do X as soon as Y happens." But yYis a long time coming, and sometimes it never shows, and when it does, it doesn't bring what you told  yourself it would. Life shouldn't be founded on contigent procrastination.

Maybe this comes from living in a society founded on waiting in lines and for dates.

Comments

[algae-al-fresco.livejournal.com]

I do structured procrastination; it keeps me from waiting and then when Y arrives I haven't been waiting for it....well, except sometimes, when I sit around and do nothing but frantically run scenarios of how to deal with Y when it comes, in which case I usually end up creating Z by sheer nervousness or lack of motion. Layers of procrastination help insulate, and I end up getting things done without noticing - I sometimes even move forward. I've forgotten X already - see how well it works? Or perhaps we wanted X? Did we? Do you remember? I like this direction too. Lets call it Q.

[arrogant-gamer.livejournal.com]

Hi

How are your hobbies going, and do you value them? I find that while waiting for something else, pursuing a little goal (like learning to play the piano, or speak Danish) is very fun!

z.