Stopping is a learned skill

I find that I automatically resist the idea of "taking a break." But it is time, and I think it feels good.

I'm too bound up in the feeling of "being useful." I feel that I always have to be doing something, even if that thing is a waste of time.

And so I would take time off, but keep busy, often doing things that I don't really enjoy. In this way, I could both do little, and feel spent.

I guess that it's not so much that I need to stop, it's that I need to learn to stop.

So first I learn to lie on the couch and read. I haven't really read in years, at least not on the couch. I'd read for class, to pass time on a trip, or on the internet.