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[the_fantastic_ms_fox]

My attempts to be what low-imagination forms of "respectable" visions expect of me (a teacher, a tradeswoman) do not work especially well. Like my attempts to become a thing in large part for the respect of others  (a professional, a provider, a writer ), they stagnate. The virtuous ones especially (solar tech, volunteer teacher?, social-work spectrum) - those really bottom out.

My attempts to surprise society with bold and creative plans (President's Choice, Doubleplusgood, Rhino, SFSS, Sculpture?, Femininjas, League of Tomorrow), do seem to work. And being things? Well, that "butch dyke" thing seems to be working out pretty well. The shadowy guerilla feminist organization worked out *for me* until it went mainstream and started (gods forbid) "inviting dialogue."

Sometimes the former creep into the latter - electrical into creative uses of power; metalwork into sculpture; entrepreneurship into organizing for change - but not just any change as it turns out - the creative stuff that drags fiction into the world of fact.

The crazy creative impresses people. But often, in the creative material, they see the potential for toned-down conventional means. Like when people want John Stewart or Rick Mercer for office. I really want to please them. But I don't think I can give them all the conventional they want while preserving my potential for work I'm proud of.

Who else has refused to be what others want of zer, but still achieving, not "flapping zer tail in the mud" like Chuang Tzu?

(Great satirists spring to mind)