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I want to learn more about sewing. I am especially interested in the idea of creating gender-variant clothes. When men wear dresses and when women wear suits (whether they were born to that sex or not, as I am finding out from personal experience) they are often stuck with the choice of having something that's either ill-fitting or padding and tightening their body to fit. What about making dresses that are made to fit the male body and work with its shape? What about suits that are made to fit on, and work for, women? No style changes. No shoulder pads and giant buttons on women's suits. No... well there aren't really dresses for men (at least not that I'm aware of) so I'm not sure what to put here.

This has applications for transsexual gender-normative people as well. And cissexed/cisgender people whose bodies don't exactly fit the mold (whaddya mean you have AA breasts? whaddya mean you're 5'5"?).

Dose anyone know of any kind of gender-variant fashion archive? Haircuts would be good too.

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A few years back, I described my faith as "a crappy Buddhist."
Self denial doesn't work

I. Want:

To spend some time in a cabin that's surrounded by snow - Birkenhead maybe, anyone else want in?

To get back into kink - I attended a workshop last night - I forgot how much fun that was - I find it a bit awkward to go to a play party without someone to play with though

To find a loving relationship - feeling irritated (gah! women! oh... wait... shit.), will keep trying, appreciate suggestions and recommendations

To learn how to make more things - a trades course looms

To be a better cook and seweringpersonything - keep practicing

A cunt - better start doing research

To be doing more art - community college maybe? Or one of those electives that looms on the way to finishing my degree

To get into physical activity that will strengthen my joints instead of hurting them - signed up for softball, will try to get involved with paintball - [ I want to make a queer paintball team (the team is queer - the people on it may or may not be) just so I can make a wordplay on "Rainbow Six"]

To take some time off - told my coworkers last month that I won't be a round much this month

To get my Student Union out of the goddamn CFS - the fight starts in January and culminates in March

To get involved in co-op stuff - I think I might go intern again
 

You got any advice or suggestions or news, or have the same thing that you want a second person to work on keep me in mind

November 2003 to present

Distracted from the wiki I'm compiling for class, I'm drawing up a wiki for my old sci-fi RPG project, and going through a lot of my old files and listening to my old music. Jesus Christ* have I changed in the last two to four years. Not just a difference in Music and shifts in interests, but changes in the fundamental narrative with which I explain the world.

The aforementioned project ("Parallax") is a sci-fi universe. I first conceived of its barest fundamentals (that of the idea of creating the general culture, but set on Earth) when I was... 17 (?), and expanded it into something resembling its present form at the age of 22 or so. I've mostly let it to sit, pulling it out for a some LeGuinian social sci-fi now and then.

This project has been with me for years. It may be basically unpublishable, but that's part of the fun. As I develop it more and more, the themes layer, creating rich social contexts and contradictions. My old social schema and theoretical utopia turned into the cultural myth by which the Praku Sdyn dominant culture operates; sometimes for good, elsetimes for ill, often incompletely and without scrutiny. A person matures; a culture deepens. Old heroes became villains and turned into complex but distant historical personages.

I might do to it what I'm doing to Panoptica. Screw fiddling with in and revamp it from the ground up (This is part of the aforementioned class wiki that I "should" be working on). I'll see how it goes with Panoptica first. If it works, I'll apply it here.

And Music too. Only two years back? Why did I listen to this? greenstorm, you were right - 90% of Stan Rogers is really depressing.

I stop and wonder what it means for a sci-fi authour to continuously publish in the same universe.

Haldeman did it in his sequel to The Forever War - the protagonist has moved, aged, married, reproduced and his children are teenagers - like the authour perhaps? Bold! Too bad the sequel was crap. Of course its hard to follow up on a masterwork of Juvenellian satire on the subject of military sci-fi.

LeGuin breaks up her Ekumen by setting them far, far apart. However these too fail to follow up on the beauty of the originals (in my humble opinion and limited experience - may I be proven wrong).

Gibson keeps writing closer and closer to the present. The fans complained. I thought that he was getting better, or at least his characters were.

Lucas.... Well the first movies were more salient and shiny and fun than good.

But outside of writing to me and my personality? I wonder if this increasing pace of personal change will keep up, or if it can. At least I'm not planning on changing sex again. The thought of disgenesis; sliding back; scares me (I was not happy), but I know how to beat it now. The thought of continued change at this increasing pace alarms me too. Will I be totally cognitively unrecognizable?

At least I still procrastinate by writing sci-fi and journaling instead of doing schoolwork (even if it is on the topic of writing sci-fi). Some things remain consistent. Except that now I'm going to bed instead of staying up and feeling rough the next day.

G'night. Be well.




*he'd approve