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[the_fantastic_ms_fox]

The swelling is going down now. I can close my lips now, which makes eating not just easier, but possible. Everything looks like it's healing fine. Just under the swelling, there is a visible difference.

The idea that I might come out of this with a regular female-looking face seems too good to be true. Transition is often a matter of trading high hopes for acceptable actuals. But how can that hold here when a more female-looking, and female-feeling, and actually-me, face is the only likely outcome; the only reason I'd come here?

And it seems that this has triggered something, as my dreams have even changed. In them I either look like I did when I was a teenager (rather than an adult male me), or I'm all swollen and surgical, or I look like I figure I will: female, but potentially mistaken for a boy.

Yeah. Good choice.

When I know all the other risks, and hear some of the stories, I worry that something has gone wrong. Or that nothing has changed. But there is no proof either way, yet.

I'm sure it will be fine.




I was in the hospital for about a day post-surgery. I'm told that it was a very good hospital, and that I was able to get a single room made my stay even better. If this is the case, I would be very happy to never see the inside of another surgical ward again - although I know that I plan to soon enough.

Let's just say that after a day of that, I was glad to get home. To get out. To get some sleep. Apparently, hospitals are terrible places to go if you're looking for rest.

I've been in the hotel room for almost four days. Ruby and Scott drove here from New Jersey to visit, and I was pleased to see that I was able to get up and go to sit down in front of Iron Man rather than American TV.

Cutting down the narcotic-acetaminophen mix, done the antibiotics soon. Home soon.

Looking forward to being on the other side of this.

Comments

[estrellada.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're feeling good about your decision. I look forward to seeing the results.

Mel and i went over and dropped some stuff off - I'm glad there's a dresser! Yay! I'm bringing the minimum of my furniture, so that's a big help.

We also ate some of the cheesecake. I hope you don't mind. It was REALLY DELICIOUS.

I brought over a box of dried goods, and will probably be bringing more food soon.

Let me know when you're home.

[hundun.livejournal.com]

The only cheesecake I am aware of is that which my cousin got in October. I threw that out last week.

Did you get the keys to Bailie? Was there a rent check stuck to the back of the front door - indicating that the landlord had retrieved it?

[hundun.livejournal.com]

Oop. Missing cheque = retrieved.

[lala-annie.livejournal.com]

Amy, I've read your last few posts with interest. Your writing style is awesome for giving your point of view of what's going on. You're also seem super informed, aware and analytical about what you're doing, which is great to read. I'm so glad your surgery has gone well so far and I wish you satisfaction with the results. I look forward to seeing you, bruises and all! ::friendly wink::

[hundun.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Glad to hear from you. Was anyone there on the 30th?

[lala-annie.livejournal.com]

I didn't go myself, and neither did Bastien, so I suspect no one was there.