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Feb. 23rd, 2012 09:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_fantastic_ms_foxFor a long time, expecting utopia, I asked myself "isn't there something else you should be doing."
This made it hard to focus.
And my mind raced for alternatives. Ways to fix things. Other ways to live? Projects to get there? And when I couldn't see a road to utopia, I found <i>something</i> to busy my mind with. Something not here, something to deny our slow, imperfect world.
Last night I said, "No. This is probably the best thing I could be doing. Definitely the best thing now."
And I could focus.
This made it hard to focus.
And my mind raced for alternatives. Ways to fix things. Other ways to live? Projects to get there? And when I couldn't see a road to utopia, I found <i>something</i> to busy my mind with. Something not here, something to deny our slow, imperfect world.
Last night I said, "No. This is probably the best thing I could be doing. Definitely the best thing now."
And I could focus.