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Aug. 2nd, 2012 12:05 amSaw myself acting today. Good, but not great. No surprise, seeing as I have no training in method acting. Yet.
Annunciation and physical expression are factors, but I see that I didn't fully invest in the part. I wasn't totally there. It may have been a thrown-together exercise, but that problem remains. Which is a more general problem than just acting. I often don't fully invest in life. I don't fully experience what I do, and I'm often holding out, thinking of something else. I think I'm afraid of not optimizing my time - a habit learned while being bored as a youth in school. Appropriate then perhaps; but not now that I have high levels of autonomy in planning my daily activities. A habit compounded by a belief that I need to "fix the world." Well, being frequently distracted ain't the way to fix anything.
To fix this, add the exercise of experiencing things with my senses and consciously describing them in words. As well as reaching down and asking, then listening to what I feel. The former overlaps in "magnetic communication," part of the Social Fluency curriculum - useful for everything from evocative writing, to honest and compelling speechcraft, to being sexy.
The latter is just a good idea all around, near as I can tell.
And perhaps an affirmation or prayer. Something about the limits of an individual. May be reading stories where the group is the hero in making change. Because groups, even small ones, make change in ways the individuals rarely do.
Three exercises.
Mayhaps I should add these to the Giant Chart of Highly Itemized New Year's Resolutions on my wall - an experiment which has drastically improved my return in sticking to resolutions.
Annunciation and physical expression are factors, but I see that I didn't fully invest in the part. I wasn't totally there. It may have been a thrown-together exercise, but that problem remains. Which is a more general problem than just acting. I often don't fully invest in life. I don't fully experience what I do, and I'm often holding out, thinking of something else. I think I'm afraid of not optimizing my time - a habit learned while being bored as a youth in school. Appropriate then perhaps; but not now that I have high levels of autonomy in planning my daily activities. A habit compounded by a belief that I need to "fix the world." Well, being frequently distracted ain't the way to fix anything.
To fix this, add the exercise of experiencing things with my senses and consciously describing them in words. As well as reaching down and asking, then listening to what I feel. The former overlaps in "magnetic communication," part of the Social Fluency curriculum - useful for everything from evocative writing, to honest and compelling speechcraft, to being sexy.
The latter is just a good idea all around, near as I can tell.
And perhaps an affirmation or prayer. Something about the limits of an individual. May be reading stories where the group is the hero in making change. Because groups, even small ones, make change in ways the individuals rarely do.
Three exercises.
Mayhaps I should add these to the Giant Chart of Highly Itemized New Year's Resolutions on my wall - an experiment which has drastically improved my return in sticking to resolutions.