I tend to be vague when I'm uncomfortable relaying something

A liitle more specificity perhaps, in part for my own understanding. What should I do? If I'm aware of being in a dream, can I see where those weird flashes of waking sleep come from? Can I try to dream of nothing? Can I try to explore the function of sleep paralysis? And if I'm feeling superstitious, what shall I do? Leave my dreams, go somewhere else?

And will I remember it when I wake up?

An Oktober dream

I may have remembered to realize I was in a dream and so I 'decide' to walk through a concrete pillar, and it's like stepping through firm jello, slow but successful. Then I forget I'm in a dream and it goes on from there in a way that may have flowed from the anxieties that surround this project: it's screwing around with something important to my health; if the superstitions and maybe Jung are right, it's screwing around with a lot more than that.

It's odd to be so worried but I find it hard not to feel some superstitious fear. I'm like that: I need drama in my life and I fear the divine. It's been ten years since I left an ultra-left-wing church and it still feels like bungee-jumping when I explicitly disagree with salvation through grace.